Check it out!


A Large Bridge! Blocky! Product of a Newbie!





First Blender Render Ever...



seems to be a word people use to describe people that somehow have come to be born with extraordinary powers.  But how can you call Picasso talented when he spent his childhood drawing? And Leanardo da Vinci spent all his money on notebooks and paper, which was expensive in those days. So if they spent all their lives working on something like that how come they are called talented? I think it’s because people use that word to pass off those people as not hard working, or to justify that they themselves aren’t producing works of art making millions. Maybe… i think everyone is talented in the sense that if we all find what we love and drive at it, then we will become adept at it. But some people have more passion and drive than others… is this talent?

I found a type writer the other day and wrote a five page letter almost immediately, which i loved doing. Type writers are the middle line between pencils and computers. Faster than a pencil, still personal, but without all the distractions of a computer… like blogs. I just wish i had a journal which i could type write in.

Speaking of journals i bought two moleskines. One your standard black ruled one, and the other one, soft cover with graph paper in it. I love the graph paper one, though i’m not going to use it till the other one falls completely apart. Duct tape is holding it together right now though. So far.

I find myself in bouts of not wanting to conquer the world… is that good or bad? Maybe i consider it too important to be famous. While i believe that the principle of changing one heart rather than touching many is right… touching many is so much more fun, isn’t it? I don’t know, but i think i like the look of the smiles full of recognition and pride on the faces of Pixar executives… Wow, this is sorta selfish. But really… it’s true. And i’m a true born cynic. So here goes: I only want to become famous so i can not worry about money and so that i can be recognized for my work. I want to change people’s ways, but i also enjoy dark things, such as The Prestige and The Dark Knight. I find myself loving a dark sense of humor, which is destructive to one’s soul. But when i stop i find myself becoming cheesy and cheapened and without motivation. I mean, i  need to find a balance between my sense of cynicsm and humor and Catholicism. Though it means no comprimises on Catholicism… well, i think i’d best let this unravel itself with my life and get back to refining the art i’m gong to use to change people’s hearts…

I wonder if when you touch the right people’s hearst you get recognized… Pixar retains it’s integrity by not letting anyone but approved people touch the projects. And they are amazing… but not cheapened by fame… Hannah Montana makes me laugh on a side note :)

I love Blender, i definitely think it’s gonna change this industry for the better, because so many people will download it and then just the hardcore will get good at it. It’s an amazing tool. That is basically what my summer is dedicated to, learning Blender. I have The Essential Blender, and i’m working my way through that, and then i’m gonna learn animating, since the book is just sculpting, through the wiki online. It’s a free manual online at

Working my heart away on that, and i have a storyline in my head. A young college student walks into a library, he reaches up and picks a dusty volume out of the shelf, he starts reading, it’s King Arthur, he imagines himself as the hero, he does the same with other books, eventually stacking them up and checking them out, he walks out and goes into the world, he helps an old lady across the street, and then at a shop window sees a display of cans fall down, an old man who owns the shop starts to clean them up but he runs in and helps, eventually i want him to find a girl who’s like him, for him to fall in love, and for him to stop reading the books and actually start experiencing life. It’s gonna probably be my first project with Blender.

Today i realized,

The beauty of the simpleton,

Goes beyond our eyes.

I’m falling in love with poetry, not the fluffy unicorn or the pompous description poetry, but the genuine poetry i can connect with.  If you head over to you can find what i mean. Search the barber and you can find a very disturbing beautiful piece that reminds me of Sweeney Todd.

As for animation, it’s slacking, i’m working on Blender more, and plans for a mind sprocket commercial are starting again, at least on my side. My brother, and head of Mind Sprocket is coming home soon, so planning will take less time and stuff. I’m looking forward to his face when he sees how much i’ve grown.

And this is amazing:

I’m gonna get CS3 pretty soon, proposing to experiment with flash animation, graphic editing, and anything else i feel like. I’ve been using Blender, an open source animation and game creation platform for Windows, Mac, and Linux. Best thing about it is that it’s up to date. It has the best documentation of anything i’ve seen, every summer they use google’s Summer of Code to document it, write manuals for it, and basically make incredible strides with interface, physics, and stuff.

While i am trying to conquer the world with that, I’ve also started planning on a 2-D animation with Mind Sprocket. Though the last video wasn’t the best marketed, i’m pleased with it overall.

Cool websites that captured my attention:

I love this thing!

Dilbert Comic 400×300